i was just watching tv just now when i suddenly remembered this incident in chi class back in sec 2, when gong laoshi was teaching us. she was telling us about the how by calculating the alphabets in your name, like how A=1, B=2, C=3 and so on, you add the numbers together till u get a single no. and these numbers from 1-9 predicts your character, future & life. my name added up to 1. and e weirdest thing was that i was the only one in my class to add up to 1. haha. i'm not a huge believer in all these, i take it with a pinch of salt. but if whatever it says for 1 is true for my life, i'd be quite a happy girl (: hahaha. you can check your name out here!

actually, i spent like the first month of my life being called 'the baby' or 'the girl', and till now my 2nd aunt still refers to me as the latter -.- and e reason why i was nameless for so bloody long, was cos my darling parents spent one bloody month consulting with goodness knows who on my name. chi name :p they had this whole list where they had each name's strokes counted out, in jian ti AND fan di to calculate my fortune. rather hilarious i find for 2 rather westernised ppl. sheesh, i do hope all the calculations work -.-

and reading a friend's blog entry, i rather like the fact that i'm still able to wear a majority of my 'heart' or emotions on my proverbial sleeve. haha. i like that fact i can still cry, over huge things or the silliest smallest things, like in e movies. hahaha. i hope the day that i cannot cry anymore never comes. i don't believe that growing up means that i must become cold and silent, keeping everything locked up inside. as i said (: i'm happy in the place that i'm in now, i'm past all the insecurities where i feel that harsh words means that i must change myself. so if u can't accept me for who i am, i think i'm now capable of saying goodbye (: haha.